Where does my JOY come from? (Part 7)

In 1990, I became ‘born again’ and I wish I could cite the hundreds of Bible verses that speak of what I gained when God sealed me with His Spirit. However, for this part of my self story of where my joy come from, there is one verse that I’ll focus on that is pertinant, Galatians 5:22-23.

On the first five years of my walk with the Lord, I underwent what I call the ‘School for Baby Christians’. Let me tell you, in that school, I learned a lot about the Holy Spirit and He taught me like a mentor. And one important lesson was that the Holy Spirit is real and not a figment of my imagination nor the brainwashing of others. You see, when the Spirit of God entered me, there was proof according to the Apostle Paul, the inspired author of Galatians, who wrote that “the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.” [Galatians¬†5:22-23 NLT]

To emphasize this lesson, God took very good care of me like a mother hen who had gathered her chicks under her wings. I recall in those early years that I hardly underwent any negative effects of any trials that came our way (that is, my wife and I). It was like all life problems were suspended, at least for a short period of time. We were blessed. One aspect of His blessing was the incredible sense of peace I had. Where once the thought of death scared me, I had peace because I know where I’ll go when my time comes. As to anxiety and stress, well, one time, my wife returned with the news the our car was rear ended. My wife was upset but I was unusually jovial about the whole incident. One of the things I noticed was how much I can love unconditionally especially to those who the world would deem unloveable. I was even more impressed by how the Spirit worked on my self-control through which I became a disciplined student. I wish I became born again during my college days. I was such a lousy student then. Other hard trials happened, but instead of emotionally breaking down, the Spirit helped me learned and I grew in faith. So, much so, when the time came, I was ready to fly on my own.

In 1994, the bottom fell off from under me. That was the year, when the peso’s value went so low, I lost a lot of work in the broadcast production business. For awhile, my wife and my savings was down to a few thousand pesos and we had bills and rent to pay. You can imagine, how my mind tried to play tricks with discouraging thoughts. What sustained me emotionally was a promise of God in the Bible’s Old Testament. It read like this. “Study this Book of Instruction continually. Meditate on it day and night so you will be sure to obey everything written in it. Only then will you prosper and succeed in all you do.” [Joshua 1:8 NLT] So, I did. I continued my daily meditation of the Bible and went to numerous Bible Study classes. Some thought I was wasting my time. I was even approached by a family member who took my Bible from my hand and slammed it on the table in front of me and said, ‘it will not put food in-front of me.’ Funny though, the Bible did feed me, so to speak.

One lesson I learned was that God always keep His promises. Less than a month after our bank account went very low, first my wife got hired on a new job and then, money (when needed and unlooked for) would come our way from unexpected sources. You see, by faith I acted upon on Joshua 1:8 and as promised, the Lord prospered me, so to speak.

I have been now walking with the Lord for more than 25 years and I have yet to be disappointed in how the Lord had led my life direction. Sure, it could seem to others that my life story was heading downhill. Since 1994, I have not been able to gain work (except for sporadic projects). Then in 2001, my body started to slow down to a point where I began to depend on an electric scooter. I graduated to a joystick controlled chair when my left arm… my working arm… lost all strenght in 2010. Then my legs gave out and I needed another machine to transfer me from my bed to my chair. By 2015, excruciating pain invaded my body and I was diagnosed that my spinal cord was being dangerously compressed. Today, it is 2018 and I am a quadriplegic unable to be independently mobile like in the old days.

I could be depressed but I choose to be grateful and joyful… an after effect of a Spirit filled life.

Until the next post,

Johann Q

Please help me go mobile, donate at or share this link to others: https://www.gofundme.com/quadriplegic-needs-mobility

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Quadriplegic Raising Funds to Go Independently Mobile

I am a recent quadriplegic and very much stuck in bed most of the time. How I became paralyzed you can read about from my blog, Becoming Paralyzed [Part 1].

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Last February, I started to raise funds in the Go-Fund-Me website, which is a crowdfunding platform that allows people to raise money for things like, in my case, me becoming a quadriplegic. But instead of giving into being a permanent vegetable, I decided to get active by doing everything I can to go independently mobile. Mobility for me means I need a safe electric wheelchair with a chin controller which can be quite expensive. This is my challenge and I can sure use your help.

So far, my sister and I manage to raise about a third of the way to our $11,000 target. But we (myself and everyone helping me) still have a long way to go. So, I need your help to spread the word to ask 700 people to donate just $10 to my Go-Fund-Me campaign.

Lord willing, we can raise the funds and I can go mobile.

Thank you very much.

Johann Q

Please help me go mobile, donate at or share this link to others: https://www.gofundme.com/quadriplegic-needs-mobility

Hopes on going independently mobile

I’ve always been a people person. ‘Shy’ is not a word that for anybody who knew me would use to describe me. When I was a kid, the family joke was I was always the one introducing my two big brothers to the girls. Of course, that is an exaggeration… almost. When I became a quadriplegic, I thought I was done because I thought I would not be able to drive my electric wheelchair because my hands didn’t work. I knew there were specialized controllers in the market and that they were extremely expensive. So expensive that, it seem unattainable and I almost gave into the thought that for the rest of my life I would be dependent on someone to push me around in a wheelchair. To some, they can live with it, but, for some reason, the Lord had put a stubborn streak on me. I felt it would be a sin to not even try to be more independent.

First, I focused on trying to generate income online by promoting my graphic art skills. I haven’t earned a cent yet, but it is still an ongoing process. I’ve also written my first ebook, The Centurion’s Gospel, and self-published it in Amazon. So far, I sold 15 ebooks about $1.99/book. My royalty earnings to date is less than $10. I have researched on other online moneymaking schemes but found them questionable. Then my sister (visiting from the States) introduced me to the Go-Fund-Me website.

According to Wikipedia, GoFundMe is a crowdfunding platform that allows people to raise money for things like life events such as celebrations and graduations to challenging circumstances like accidents and illnesses. How it works is that the user is allowed to create a web page where they can relate their story. They provide service to utilize the user’s email, facebook and twitter contact listing and automatically send notices about their campaign page. GoFundMe is also where the donations are safely collected until it is withdrawned by the beneficiary.

For weeks, I hesitated going down this route. My pride was a factor in pleading for help. But I have yet to generate income. So, I swallowed my pride and created my GoFundMe campaign page. I did this with the conviction that this is just to raise the money so I can become more independent and self sufficient. My hopes are that, as I become more mobile, I’ll be out there to be among people. Then I can make connections and build up my network. This opens the opportunity to return the favor of everyone who donated for me to pay-it-forward.

Again, I want to thank everyone for their support and ecouragements.

Until the next post,

Johann Q

Please help me go mobile, donate at or share this link to others: https://www.gofundme.com/quadriplegic-needs-mobility

What I use to control my computer with no hands?

After my 4 months stay in the hospital (which, by the way, had no WiFi), my mind was already taking on stock on how I can get back into my computer without the use of my hands. I had a bunch of really wild ideas that required some homespun inginuity. One idea came from when I was a puppeteers. Marionettes (string puppets) were my specialty. I conceptualized stringing my hand over a touch-pad tablet. Control strings attached to my head would manipulate my hand. But in the long run, I threw it out. The rig would have been cumbersome and too elaborate. Oh, my mind raced away with even crazier ideas.

Fortunately, I didn’t have to re-invent the wheel. With technology today, well minded engineers have considered the plights of quadriplegics and have already come up with incredible solutions. Many of them required extra hardwares and was a little expensive. Now, at that time, I didn’t want to be a continious burden to my family and friends. So, I kept looking. (Oh, by the way, my caregiver was the one typing for me at that time.) Anyway, again, by God’s grace, there were some FREE options that were put together by conscientious people. I discovered the CAMERA MOUSE.

The Camera Mouse was developed by the graduate students of Boston University to aid quadriplegics. It required no specialized hardware except what you should already have, a computer and a webcam. It is software, that is, a program that first utilizes your webcam to identify and track a spot on your face. Then, it will actively execute mouse functions, so that when you move face left/right or up/down, the curser arrow will follow. It also has a function to automatically execute the ‘clicking’ every 3-5 seconds. It is an optional convenience for those who are totally paralyzed, but I still had some miniscule control in my hands, in this case, my left thumb. So, I have managed to strap an old mouse on my hand where my thumb can press down on the mouse button [see image].

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AQ-ARCTIC-workarea-w.jpgNow, this gave me greater control on my computer, so that I am able to work on computer graphic projects again. If you send me a high resolution picture of yourself, I can photoshop you into another background [see image]. By the way, I am still available for projects (hint, hint). The camera mouse, together with an onscreen keyboard, actually made it possible for me to complete my first ebook which can be purchased in Amazon (again, hint hint).

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Anyway, Camera Mouse is available for everyone for FREE (link below).

Again, I want to thank everyone for their support and ecouragements.

Until the next post,

Johann Q

Please help me go mobile, donate at or share this link to others: https://www.gofundme.com/quadriplegic-needs-mobility

Camera Mouse
http://www.cameramouse.org/

Check out my other graphic work at JQGraphix:  https://jqgraphix.page4.me/

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